Role Models (2025)

Here is the full text of the short story by the American author John Updike (first published in The Atlantic Monthly , 1994, and later included in his collection The Afterlife and Other Stories ). Role Models By John Updike

The poet stopped again, and this time he did not go on. He looked into his glass, as if the wine held a vision, and then he looked up and said, “I have spent my entire life trying to get that innocence back. And I have failed.” Role Models

There was a silence. Then someone laughed, a nervous, polite laugh, and the tension broke. People began to talk among themselves, and the poet turned away from the fireplace and walked toward the bar. I followed him. Here is the full text of the short

“What’s that?”

“That I used to be young,” he said. “And that I used to believe in things. Now I’m old, and I don’t believe in anything. Not in God, not in love, not in art, not in myself. I don’t even believe in the truth. I just tell stories.” And I have failed

I met him at a party given by a couple who were both therapists. The party was in a large, white, high-ceilinged room in a house that had once been a barn. The therapists, like many in their profession, were rich. Their friends were rich, or at least successful—lawyers, doctors, producers, professors, and, like me, writers. I was a writer of some reputation, but my reputation was not as great as his. He was a famous poet, one of those poets who become famous without ever writing a best-seller, without ever appearing on television, without ever being photographed in a magazine. He was famous because his poems were beautiful and strange and because he had been, for a time, the lover of a famous actress. The famous actress was dead now, dead of cancer, and the poet was old. He was seventy-three, and his face was a map of wrinkles, his hair was white and thin, and his eyes were the color of the sea in winter. He stood by the fireplace, holding a glass of white wine, and people gathered around him, listening to him talk. I stood on the edge of the group, not wanting to intrude, but wanting to hear what he said. He was telling a story about a time when he was young, a time when he had gone to Paris and had met Gertrude Stein.

I closed my eyes, and I waited for morning. End of text.